On when I learnt no does not mean no a poem (TW rape)

I feel you in my body

The fire, burning deep inside of me, of us

Cursing through my veins like red hot liquid oozing

And I am ready and willing for you

Enthusiastic

But little did I know, that when I said yes to one man

I said yes to all men

I said yes to never being allowed to say no

I said yes to no never meaning no

To no meaning yes in spite of every fibre of my body telling me that it is not so

I gave in to yes and gave up my no

I learnt that my body is not always my own

Little did I know this when I said yes to you

That I automatically say yes even when it isn’t so